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Four Boys


2013
01.26

It was my birthday the warmth of the April day embraced me as I made my way to the train station. I walk half excited and half tired from hanging out with my German friends the night before. I was with Clinton my young South African friend that shared his room with me on this trip. Clinton was a sixteen year old Coloured Capetonian. He was living with Ryan Dalton, my missionary friend in Muizenberg.

As Clinton and I walked our steps and movements along the way were almost a jig. The day carried an excitement in it. On the way to the Observatory station we discussed whether or not paying for the ticket would make a difference to the economy of the country. He argued we should just hop on without paying while I argued if everyone did that there would be no train. My point of view amused him.

I threaten to preach on the train on our ride home more to embarrass him then to make disciples. He laughed telling me he would pretend he did not know me. We paid for our tickets and waited for out train to arrive. Clinton hated riding first class but today I wanted the comfort of it. It would take more energy for me to ride third, it was my birthday so Clinton obliged.

First class offered better seating and I thought I could maybe prop my legs up and rest my eyes a bit on our forty-five minute ride to Muizenberg. Third class seats offer the complete opposite. People ride packed in the cabins and often standing. I was not feeling like being a missionary. I reasoned it’s my birthday and I could take the day off. 
We spent the time waiting for the train in the pavilion. The sound of Clinton’s cell phone prodded me to listen. We argue a little about the rapper he was listening to. I argue the song is obnoxious nonsense and he argues it’s brilliance.

The train finally arrived and we boarded. It was packed even for a mid day ride. I managed to take a seat while Clinton rode standing till the train cleared a bit. A few stops later there were fewer people allowing Clinton to take a seat beside me. I had my iPod on listening to India Arie. I joked with him throughout our ride pretending I was getting up to sing a song or preach on the train. He looked mortified with each attempt.


While on the ride back to Muizenberg many people enter and leave our train. Some we notice others go unseen. Lives that we encountered but had no idea that we have taken the same ride. Unaware that we have sat in the same place and breathed the same air; People who went unnoticed by us and many other passengers.

Yet, there are some that I will not forget. Like one particular Coloured woman that sat next to me. We noticed her as she got on the train. She weighed at least a good 250lbs., which seemed like all muscle. When she entered the train immediately we looked at each other, half smiling half amazed. She sat beside me and part on me for three stops.
 There are passengers that ride along side you or stand near you that you forget as soon as you leave the train. There are also passengers that you carry with you seconds, minutes, and hours later. Those you close your eyes and remember their smiles and eyes. There are four for me.

They got on at Retreat, two stations from where we were to get off. They entered the train and wrecked my heart.
 Four Coloured boys, their entrance like a scene from Slum-dog Millionaire. The boys, none of which are above the age of eleven, were all barefoot. Their feet were black from walking the hike from either the township or wherever they call home. They entered our cabin and no one else existed to them. They made their way to the last seats on either side. Two on one side and two on the other. My eyes are glued to them. I lose sight of India Arie and forgot about Clinton. The lady who once sat beside and on me no longer exist, she had become a memory to relive late.


The boys stuck their heads out of the windows and smile and laughed at each other. In their own world of pure enjoyment as the train makes it way down the tracks. There was not one word whispered to each other or to any of the passengers. I watched them intently as they enjoyed their ride. The guards must not have taken notice of them while they waited to sneak on the train. I am sure they would have been kicked off if noticed by security. They did not seem to have a care as they rode heads out the window full of life.

The lady across from me is amused by me staring at the kids. I had become lost in their world. Her giggles break the hold they have on me. I lean over to Clinton and ask him where are their shoes. “They don’t have any,” he said like I should know that. I had been in Cape Town for over four months and was unaware of the truth of its poverty. The lady across from me smiled half laughing at my ignorance. I did not care what she thought. The boys again gained my full attention.


I am captivated at first by their freedom, then by their enjoyment, and finally by their reality. A booster came on to the train selling snacks and trinkets. I only noticed him by their eyes. They had forgotten about the ride and the reality of hunger hit them. They each watched as he makes his way to his seat. Their eyes were fixed, not on him but his box of goodies.

I have seen a kid want but the look in their eyes surpasses a kid wanting a cookie, it was the look of a kid needing a meal.
 “Jesus, I don’t know what to do; I have nothing to give them. If you would just give me something,” I prayed silently. I remembered I had coins in my pocket from buying the tickets. I asked Clinton to call the older kid over and he does so in Afrikaans.

The oldest boy comes over to us yet the others eyes did not move from the bags of nik naks. I offered him R55 to buy snacks for him and his friends. By then we were at our station they are purchased the nik naks and I have to force myself to leave train. Who will feed them? How will they eat? Where are they going? Who will buy them shoes? Who will take care of them?
 These questions flood me as I make way to the exit.

I can still close my eyes see them. I see their dirty feet. I see them staring at the nik nak seller. I remember them. They entered the train and bombarded my life. There are some people that you ride with that you forget as soon as you leave them. And there are some people that you carry after the ride days, and weeks, and yes years later.
 I carry them.

The Flow


2010
05.18

It was a rainy winter day in Cape Town. The kind of rain that pours sideways. The gloomy day was chilly and overcast. My Brazilian friend Diogo and I decide to spend the day at Access Park. Access Park is an outlet shopping center we had seen a number of times while riding the trains from Cape Town to Muizenberg. The outlet had always provoked interest we decided to weather the rain to check it out. We mostly wanted to get out of Muizenberg to avoid a three hour staff meeting but also the shops looked cool.

In order for us to get from the Muizenberg to the mall we had to take the train. We made or plan to meet up and sojourn to the outlets. We boarded the busy train thankful that the planned strike that day did not happen after all the fuss. The workers planned a week long strike which would have left us to that staff meeting and ping pong (table tennis) until dinner. We were elated to escape. The train that day was full and it was not even the normal rush time of people going home. We stood by the door opposite of the one we entered.

Diogo and I both quietly observed the other passengers. You learn quickly to be aware of those around you on trains in Cape Town. I usually scan trains nearly unnoticed as an outsider until I speak. My accent has a way of giving me up. This time we observe quietly. All of the passengers sit quietly. I hoped not to be discovered as an American and he to fit in as just another passenger.

I enjoyed riding the train and being apart of that world. I took in the whole experience of the ride. Stepping in, getting use to the smell of the train. Admiring the presence of its passengers. Third class has a culture all of its own. I have now come to love it. The smell of the township reminded me of why I was there. The sounds of the different but native languages and the movements of the big African mama’s remind me of all that is Africa. We had stepped into a different domain.

On the second stop after we entered the train a man with a guitar boarded. I watched him as made his way to see his seat. I noticed that he was using his hands to feel his way around. He was blind. I thought, here we go, I wonder how this one will sound. I had grown accustomed to the train performers who perform for money. Often the songs brought more sadness than delight and you give more to keep them moving than to help them. Sad truths when the poor become nuisances in the hearts of the ones who are to bless them.

I awaited the man to begin his show. This gentleman would usher in a sound that will change the whole flow of our ride. He began to strum his guitar on our quiet train ride and as he did he took us on his ride. He had become the piper and we followed without choice. Our feet began tapping as others begin humming as he sang. As he sang he carried us all away. The Spirit was moving through the train.

We all followed without trying, effortless. He did not ask for anything nor was permission given for the experience but he was like a seed sown. We, the passengers, had become soil and the sound was like water causing the atmosphere to be fruit. It made everyone come alive without effort. We all partook.

A Gogo (grandmother) seated across from where we stood made her way to him. She was a large woman. She is what I envision “Papa” to look like in the book The Shack. She staggered over and dropped coins into his box. When she returned she joined him singing the song he sang. He was obviously singing some kind of gospel. She took her seat and began to sway back and forth singing and clapping. Everything happening quickly.

The lady sitting next to her joined in singing and swaying. I looked around to see the other passengers. Toward the other end of our cabin I saw feet tapping and women clapping. I looked around too eyes closed and people singing with the Guitar Leader. The man that stood across from us moved so much he almost danced. I think he was unaware of how much he was really moving. The Spirit was moving in a way that took us all unaware.

The Gogo that sat across from us started preaching in Xhosa and pointing. People became even more engulfed in the movement that was happening. I looked to the ground to see my right foot just as much apart of the motion. I lost count of how many stops we made I had no account of who had entered or left the cabin.
I looked back up to the Gogo and she was preaching again while pointing at Diogo. Her face was full of life. We had no idea what she was saying but it made the God in me arise. Something about it just yielded life. When we arrived at our destination I forced myself to leave. The atmosphere was we left our cabin but carried that experience with us. It was infectious and crept into the remainder of the day.

I think about that train ride often. It challenged me. It makes me think about how evident the Kingdom being among us can be. It challenged me to be responsible for what I bring into the company of others. What we carry in us has the ability to change and challenge individuals around us. I am responsible for what spirit, energy and what life we carry into the space of others.

On the train ride that day the Guitar player came into the cabin and infected it with life. As he strum and sang what he carried was spread. We did not understand the words of the song. We could not interpret the meanings but the energy of it caused the mood of the place to shift. It caused others to move with him in the flow of life.

Someone who carried life well was the Gogo on the train. She was a passenger just like us. I doubt she expected her ride to turn out the way that it did. However she decided to take apart and with her energy and life she evoked the life in others to rise. Imagine the outside of the train the cold winter rain of Cape Town. The clouds gray and gloomy, the wind blowing fiercely and you have walked through it to board a busy train. That was her journey before she boarded the train.

This lady has entered the train carrying bags. As if it was not enough to be traveling in that weather alone she is lugging groceries and whatnot’s for the her family. She enters the train and when the music begins she welcomes it . She leaves all the gloom and travel outside of the train and taps into the flow. As she points and speaks what she carries infects those that surround her.

I think about the Apostle Peter and his interactions with Jesus. In the bible Jesus celebrates and rebukes Peter in less than one chapter. I am sure we have all heard the story of Jesus asking the disciples, “Who do man say I am?” Peter answers, You are the Christ, Son of the Living God and Jesus seems to him Blesses him. Later when Jesus is telling his disciples of the suffering he is to undergo Peter pulls him to the side to rebuke him, telling him this should not be. Jesus says to him get the behind me Satan.

Peter in two instances reveals two different kingdoms. He brought to Jesus words of Faith in one encounter and then an ariled rebuke covering fear of losing his friend. We also carry in us the ability to bring an energy that yields life in others or fear and negativity. My fellow passengers chose to bring life into the train ride. Exciting how the Spirit will move when you least anticipate it on rides you doubt you will enjoy and in people you least expect. I always want to be apart of the flow.

The guitar player and the Gogo seemed to carry Kingdom. They lived in it and and because of that they were able to bring the Kingdom into the train. I left the train knowing I had encountered a different domain. I want to carry that with me.

Movie w/ Sum Kiddos


2010
04.06

It was Sunday afternoon in Cape Town. I started the day at a church in Muizenberg near the Capricorn Township. I spent the afternoon walking through the flea market and planned an evening hanging with some kids from Capricorn. Ryan, my host, told me earlier that some of the kids asked him if they could come over to watch a movie. Ryan “Brown” Dalton had been a missionary in Cape Town for 10 years. He is what I like to call the real deal. Every “street kid” in Cape Town knows him by name. He speaks Afrikaans fluently and had even spent 16 days of Activism living on the streets.

Ryan had lived in the Muizenberg area for a while and has a relationship with many of Capricorns kids. Capricorn is a smaller township in the Western Cape. It houses about 10-15,000 people. It is a mixed site with the predominantly race being Coloured. It hosts some Black South Africans as well as Africans who have traveled down from northern countries. It was initially an informal settlement. Now considered a formal settlement it is made up of shacks and not so well built homes.

The evening with the kids would teach me a great lesson. Upon entering the gate of our community the kids are harassed by the security guards and neighbors. The scene had become a common occurrence here with each visit. The guards, Coloured themselves, find the kids to be an unwelcome threat to the neighborhood. Ryan argued with the guards a bit about their racist attitudes. He had become known by the kids as their protector. They tell me often of times he had stood up for them and fought on their behalf.

​The kids walk in like normal kids unfazed by the treatment towards them from the guards. They are hosted with cookies, Ryan baked the night before, muffins and coke. They take their seats at first beside me on the couch and in just seconds I am overwhelmed by the smell. An overtaking odor that I cannot ignore. The kids live in shanty houses in the townships. Some do not have running water in the homes. Showering is a luxury some cannot afford. Most have spent the day in Muizenberg begging and have not bathed in days. My first thought is, oh hell, I have to sleep here!

The smell began to engulf the room. I went to the bedroom to fetch my laptop and when I returned the smell seized me. I took my seat and began to write. As they watch their movie I wanted to go to the room to escape the smell. I knew I had to stay seated. I thought can I hug them and be with them like I don’t smell the stench from the clothes they have worn at least all week long. Can I sit through this movie and not think my head will have to lie exactly where they are sitting. I knew the scent would be left as a reminder. It’s in this moment of shear honesty with myself that I realized how jacked up I am.

I sat across the room writing and as I wrote I observed. I watched as one shared with his younger mate a muffin. There were many on the plate but he took one and broke it and gave it to his friend. They each made sure the other had snacks. I watched as they share the same water glass from the sink although there were many to choose from. One would drink and then fill the glass for the other. They sat stacked one on the other laughing and talking enjoying the movie and I see it just as real as I see them, they live the kingdom.

It is also in these moments while looking on that I understand, “Theirs is the kingdom.” A phrase that challenges the core of what motivates me. Have I become so detached that I allow a persons disposition to hinder my interactions. I wonder how often I have been so bombarded with what offends that I miss the opportunity to participate in something greater. I realize I have so much to learn. They have become my teachers. Therein is the Kingdom. These children leading the way.